haha.jiamin seems really disturbed that i have an indian great grandfather :P
the term is finally over.hallelujah.though that spells the impending doom of eoys.really worried for jap oral.i think i'll just freak out and stone at the teacher.fausty suggested i ask her to repeat herself until she gets sick of me and asks me to go.but seriously,what if she asks me a question that i completely dont understand??!!god im so nervous.oral exams are the worst.
and of course there's math and chem and physics to worry abt.bloody hell.i think you get retained or something if you dont pass math.


i recently discovered that my maternal great grandfather was an indian @_@ my great great grand mother didnt have a son and you know how it was in those days so she adopted an indian boy.it's really weird cos i sure as hell dont look indian and my mum doesnt look indian and my grandmother is a little dark skinned but you wont be able to tell she had an indian father if you look at her.i wonder where those genes went.and none of my cousins look indian either.hmm.feels funny though.i thought i was chinese through and through.


all the *#@!&%^ panadol in the fridge and not a single one for cold relief.


im so relaxed now.too relaxed.i should be doing some work.oh hell i'll do it later :)
it would suck to be a celebrity wont it?particularly if you're a teenage pinup.you get people snapping pictures of you all the time even if you're having a bad hair day and pre-pubescent homrmonal freaks try to tear your clothes off and hair out every chance they get.but i suppose the money might be quite good.and it's a nice way to stroke your ego as well.

You Are 56% Brutally Honest

Honesty is important to you, but generally, you try not to be brutal about it. You'll sugar coat the truth when you need to... and tell a white lie when necessary.

only?that sucks.


i am officially in love with 2 guys called BEN AND JERRY.oh god.i thought i had died and gone to heaven when i tasted their fossil fuel ice cream but today i have decided that heaven is made of oatmeal cookie chunk ice cream.i never thought that i would or could associate food with euphoria :D


it feels so good to be home :) i hate long days at school.though i have to scoot in an hour or so cos i have chem tuition which will start and end half an hour later as of today meaning i'll be even more tired when i get home afterwards.damn.life as a student sure is tough.
today's lit class was spastic.mrs westvik and mr tan didnt come for class last week cos they had to invigilate o level oral so we were supposed to discuss in groups and come up with a presentation on the purpose of emily bronte creating characters in wuthering heights who are obsessive and compulsive in their behaviour.er.right.my group spent the 1 1/2 hours torturing each other with their senseless humour and i found this really cool stack of old magazines to amuse myself with.so in a nutshell,we didnt do anything.
then came lit class today and after half an hour of lecture mrs westvik wanted us to present.literally us.meaning my group.of all the confounded luck.none of the other groups prepared anything either and she had to choose us to start.so jac and i got pushed by our horrible group members to go make a fool of ourselves.
so we just talked alot of crap that somehow managed to make sense but it was still highly embarassing.and i bet you by thursday mrs westvik would have forgotten abt the other presentations.pleh.


ive decided that chemistry has replaced math as my most hated subject.after enduring doing math for 2.5 hour periods daily for 5 days,i can conclude that i actually kinda like math.ive always had a love-hate relationship with it anyway.but chemistry.god.that vile subject.i cant even take doing chemistry for half an hour.just looking at the textbook makes my heart sink into the deepest depth of depression.and i discovered that chemitry is an anagram for 'shit,me cry'.how apt.


gosh.eunice just called and asked if i minded performing our OM skit for teacher's day.god.im in shock.it feels so weird to start thinking about OM again.it was so long ago!and the emotions i get when i recall those days are really mixed.it seems almost like a dream you get on one of those sleepless nights and your mind is hanging somewhere between the realm of sleep and conciousness,so hard to forget,and yet so hard to hold on to.
ok.shouldnt wax lyrical about a stupid project.got a whole lot of work to do.
PRONGS' LIST OF UNFINISHED WORK GNAWING AWAY AT HER CONSCIENCE
1)THE ESSAY.To Mrs Seah:I'M TRYING!!!But I'm not an exposition kinda person.
2)Jap test tomorrow.Haven't started studying.
3)Chem Worksheet 5.7.1 *&%$#@$*
4)Physics revision on light and lenses
5)Chem revision on particulate theory of matter and mole concept
6)Math revision on functions and congruent and similar figures and logarithm
im serious about being a straight A student by the end of next year.i really am.secondary school hasnt been the most smoothsailing period of my education career and the probabaility and frequency of me failing math tests has never been higher.i think i just need to prove to myself that i can do it before ending this chapter of my life.


i cant get myself off the computer to go study :( i shouldnt have studied so hard this afternoon.i always feel so justified to have a 5 hr break after studying.i studied for 2 hrs and 50mins straight then i went for dinner and watched that's so raven and drake and josh and now there's no way i'll be able to concentrate on my work for the rest of the night.
ive drawn up a study timetable to revise for eoys.wont say im im sticking to it completely but hey,it's only the first day and ive acomplished 85% of what i set out to do.
argh.im doing such stupid things now.i really must go read some physics or chem stuff.or try to understand log.


i wonder what's gonna happen to me in the future.im starting to find it pretty scary that i have no goals in life.ok except the get straight As by the end of next year goal.im talking abt life goals.like what i want to do with the time i have on earth.vanda said she's known what she wanted to be when she grows up since she was in K2.wth.when i was in K2 i was more concerned with getting the teacher to give me as much playtime in the playground as possible.and you know how people say you have to know what you wanna be now cos your future depends on your subject combi in jc.i feel so completely lost.i dont think ive ever really wanted to be anything in life.i think i did want to be a policeman or zookeeper when i was abt 4 but my mum made some sarcastic remark abt getting killed and cleaning shit.so ive been pretty much directionless since then.
i remember when i was in P1 the teacher made us write a passage on "what i want to be when i grow up" (you realise teachers always set this kind of stupid topics).and i had absolutely no idea what to write.so i asked my dad what he wanted me to be when i grew up.and he said the prime minister of singapore.can you believe it?!so i ended up writing abt how i wanted to be be the PM.gosh.give me a dung shovel any day.and for the next 7 1/2 years whenever some senseless adult posed me that stupid question i would just say doctor/lawyer/some shallow high paying job that everyone wants their kids to have.i hate it when i get asked that question because they always go like this:
distant relation twice removed:Waaaahh,so big already ah?What school are you in huh?
a frustrated and irritable me:Nanyang primary/girls' high.
distant relation twice removed:Waaaahh such a good school!So clever ah!So what do you want to be when you grow up?
a frustrated and irritable me:doctor/lawyer/some shallow high paying job that everyone wants their kids to have
distant relation twice removed:Waaaahh really ah?(Me:Noooo...)That's a good job leh!Next time earn alot of money ah!Hahahaha...
god.imagine their faces if i had said zookeeper.why do you have to ask kids these questions in the first place?let them go watch their saturday morning cartoons and play 'house' and eat their boogers in peace.why make them think abt how much they want to earn or how high the social ladder they have to climb before they can get accepted?
but apparently im not a kid anymore and cant afford to be directionless.so here i am now with no clue as to what the future means to me.
gosh that was such a long rant.i shouldnt listen to emo songs in the evening.


heheh.we didnt do much studying after all :P we really ended up watching high school musical and 3 episodes of the suite life.but honestly,if i look back at my 15 year old self 20 years from now im pretty sure i'll remember the day yehui and vanda came over and we having loads of fun rather than how much i scored for some god-forsaken physics test.we talked alot and yehui left me an entire bag of fruit plus candies and vanda played mario my gameboy and we ordered macs for lunch :)
i think the only thing i can appreciate abt school is the friendships that i forged there.


today was such a mentally exhausting day :( i swear miss fu kills me a little everytime she steps into the classroom.stupid mole concept.gabriella montez is a freak.and as much as i like physics and mdm toh as a person,i cant stay focused during the lessons.i spent the entire hour irritating vanda by eating in class and drifting in and out of a daze.everything in physics lessons sounds like mumble-jumble-vectors-hocus-pocus-resolutionofforces-stream-of-conciousness-girlsthisisimportant-mad-rush-to-find-foolscap.which is why i am likely to fail the physics test on thursday.
but at least vanda and yehui are coming tomorrow at 8 to watch high school musical and the episode of the suite life starring zac efron study physics with me :) we made a pact that we will be straight A students by the end of next year.i know vanda is already nearly a straight A student but she can stick around and help with the math and chemistry bit and yehui and i can help her with LA.
i really should be studying physics now.skipped chem tuition to revise.


i was resting so peacefully on my bed just now,about to drift of to sleep when my dastardly handphone rang and it was lisyn,asking me abt chinese sia stuff which was fine until she told me to get up and do the ppt.sigh.ok.so im up.should never have answered that stupid phone...but at least im almost done.


i just finished watching singing in the rain.it rocks.it totally rocks my socks off.and i thought the pop scene in the 21st century has degenerated since the 90s.god we've been slipping down the cultural ladder since before i was born!look at the kind of crap musicals we get nowadays.ok i know im being really ironic and hypocritical here but after watching singing in the rain,high school musical seems like nothing more than a couple of teenager's pathetic quest for stardom.there's absolutely no room for comparison.the dancing back then was just so explosive!the moves are full of energy and talent.and the acting is so real it's not even acting.and the dialogue!god the dialogue.the words flowed like music and the use of the language was so witty and elegant.people dont dance like that anymore.people dont act like that anymore.hell,people dont speak like that anymore.
i feel like crying.if the humans want to go on living on earth and destroying it the least we can do is stop this degeneration of the human race.i thought evolution made people smarter.


I HATE CHINESE SIA!!!ARGH!!! DAMN YOU TO HELL YOU BANE OF MY LIFE,YOU DEVIL INCARNATE,YOU EVIL THANG!!
have to hand in sia tomorrow so im slogging my guts out now trying to form a coherent sentence about survey results and statistics in chinese.i dont have the jargon vocab pls.i dont wanna doooo.... :(


oh god i love the backstreet boys.THEY ROCK MY SOCKS OFF.i had a sudden mad urge to watch all their past videos tonight and they brought back so many memories.i love the 90's so much. i wish the year 2000 never came :( the pop scene has deteriorated so much i cant even tell the difference beween its current state and a rotting musk ox carcass that has been fed on by vultures and all manner of microbes.(and i had a sudden realisation that my life started screwing up after '99)i mean in those days of yore you actually had groups that lasted 10 years or more and are still going strong (like bsb) and their music videos actually have class.god.what with all the american idol and reality tv crap now all you get is a pretty face that fizzles for a few seconds then dies and fades into obscurity.where is rueben studdard now you tell me.or fantasia.how many albums has she sold?or whoever the hell won the 4th season (i dont even know).so kelly clarkson made it big.but that's one out of 4.and i'll be damned if they make another season and expect that 'star' to sell.
i miss the rocking 90s.COME BACK! :(


hope to nip the matter in the bud before it flares up too much.not saying that people who didnt turn up for the auditions are irresponsible.i know alot of people put in effort to practise but couldnt make it or thought the audition was postponed.im just upset at the people who didnt practise at all and ran off during every dance practise.i know a couple of ppl brought chie out yesterday and i think that's really nice considering leeqi is a lousy host and makes her buddy feel very bored she's a foreigner and she's here to suffer leeqi's torture on an exchange trip.
yup.so that's that.hope there's no misunderstanding.


ok.so we didnt get in for the teacher's day audition.but MAN we rocked the house.i went away for an hour and forty five minutes for some debates thing and when i came back miao ran and suxiang had learned the dance from scratch and they were all in formation and angela and chenxi were dancing the couple part solo and they all looked bloody good.after all the frustration and disappointment caused by some members of the class i feel awfully thankful for these people.vanda angela lisyn yehui mengyun chenxi miao ran suxiang charlotte.i hope i didnt miss out anyone.even though we didnt get in,i felt really high after the auditions cos i felt we had acheived something.despite all the odds that were against us we managed to hold our own.i swear to god i love you people.


i managed to finish my chinese activity reflections! :) just spent the whole night sitting at my table writing and writing.i feel accomplished.i think im becoming more hardworking.ive almost finished math worksheet 13.1 except for the last question which i dont know how to do.note:13.1 is due next monday and i started on it yesterday.and ive been doing a lot of revision for physics and math.yeah!im becoming a good student! :S

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so busy these few days...hardly have time to update.
man today's chem spa was so fooked up.didnt know hot to calculate mole at all.im so pissed.cant get it no matter how many times i read the textbook.and erp.argh.i have to redo it because i kinda veered off to writing my own essay instead of 'critically responding' to the passage i chose.dammit.i hate writing about other people's writing.i should probably be thankful that mrs seah let me redo it but god i hate this kind of essays.it's killing me.what with all the quoting and responding and quoting again.and i have to hand it in tomorrow.didnt have time to do it last night cos i had chem tuition for 2 hrs on redox.so now im stuck in front of the computer,suffering from my first ever bout of literary constipation.i have to squeeze each incoherent sentence out s-o-o-o-o s-l-o-w-l-y.man it's a big blow to my ego.

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