gosh.i managed to finish the entire physis sia in 1 day.i didnt do anything before today and i finished it.wohoo.i rock man.


stupid erp driving me crazy.im in no mood to write anything now and the bloody thing's due tomorrow.argh.i hate writing about other people's writing.and it's hard when teachers have expectatations of you.gotta watch your back all the time.cant let your standard slide.ARGH.THE PAIN.mr shone's gonna be teaching astrophysics tomorrow and i really want to crack open my nice thick physics book and get a headstart but im stuck here talking about some guy's column on abortion.geez.cant believe i just said that.actually,i'd hardly qualify it as a column cos it sounds more like a diary entry or a conversation over high tea to me and i think it sucks but it's the best i can get.but im not writing very decent stuff either.garbage in,garbage out.
at least i dont feel as pissed as last night.last night i was so freaking hormonal.i was getting hot flushes and the slightest bit of irritation would spark off an intense feeling of incontrollable rage.gah.and i had this serious headache to go along with it.i felt like someone had smashed my skull right down the middle with the blunt side of a cleaver and i could feel both hemispheres of my brain throbbing independently.still hurts a little now actually but i'll live.gotta finish the damn erp.


sabats have been real fun man.astronomy rocks.i know alot of the ppl find it boring judging from the blank looks,deathly silence and sea of carcasses slumped over desks during the class.pity really.i wish i was in a more enthusiastic class.it really kills the fun of learning when you cant learn from the people around you.kinda like how i feel during language arts
quite pissed abt the dance.smsing with vanda yesterday and she was uncharacteristically curt as well.she didnt even chide me when i said 'asses' or 'give a shit'.bloody irresponsible people.im gonna get even somehow.


the asian version of breaking free is frightening.the guy looks like a vampire.and they all cant sing,though the singaporean sounds the best,even if i must say it myself.and they're pronounciation is terrible.gosh.what made the producers think that song was ever fit for public listening.there's ad lib and it makes the whole song sound so wrong.
sabats start tomorrow.no lessons for a whole week :D


hah!jake gyllenhaal won best performance and best kiss with heath ledger on mtv movie awards.and hayden christensen won best villain.it couldnt have been a better sweep :)


im such a slacker/procrastinator :( i wrote out a timetable at school of what im going to do when i get home.and it had all these lofty aspirations of finishing my physics worksheet and math portfolio and reading up on remainder-factor theorem so i'll have the slightest inkling of what mrs chew is talking abt tomorrow.but here i am.blogging.haiz.but then again, im in a slightly celebratory mood cos i think i did quite ok for the chem test.i think i handled it pretty well.it's the first chem test ever that im confident of passing.
yup.i think i can force myself to go read my math textbook now.



my gi and new blue belt and (gramatically incorrect) certificate!


i should be studying now.i really should.i was studying really well this morning but then came lunch and i picked up a book to read while eating and now there's absolutely no way i can get back to doing stupid trigo equations or whatever shit we're supposed to know.not to mention i squandered away 2 hours after lunch squealing at adorable kids on e!'s 50 cutest child stars.dammit.i hate myself so much.
YOU NEED TO FOCUS DUDE.FOCUS.NOW GET OFF THE DAMNED COMPUTER AND GO DO SOME WORK BEFORE YOUR CONSCIENCE STARTS GOADING YOU TONIGHT AND TOMORROW AFTER THE TEST.DAMN YOU,YOU STUPID FOOL.
okok.i'll go study now.right after i take a nap.


i dont think mr khong understands the situation,the way he gave us that lecture today.yes there is discrimination if you can call it that in our class but it's not against a group of people.it's against one person.and we all know who it is.the ENTIRE school knows who it is so it would help if we could start naming names instead of using ambiguous pronouns all the time.it would be so much easier if we lay all the cards on the table.and i dont think he even understands why we all dont like sicheng.he has no idea.the fact that he says we discriminate against an entire group of people means he's barking up the wrong tree completely.and of course the fact that he was conducting a monologue irritates me even more.he probably just strengthened sicheng's sense of righteousness and self pity abt a million times.and the only reason vanda keeps helping sicheng is because she's a bleeding heart,not because sicheng has some innate likeable quality in her the rest of the world is blind to.
and for heaven's sake.this is the real world.people arent going to baby you and love you forever.grow up.


OMG.OMG.OMG.OMG.OMG.OMG.
I AM IN SHOCK.
MY PARENTS BOUGHT A HOUSE.
OMG.OMG.OMG.OMG.OMG.OMG.
okok.i should calm down.it's not official yet but it nearly is.cos the agent just left with the cheque of our deposit for the owner to sign.and once she does it's a done deal.unless of course someone offers a super high price and she wants to break the contract then she has to compensate us.unlikely but possible.but other than that,OH GOD.ive been staying in this house since i was 1.all my memories of the trials and tribulations and joys and sorrows of my childhood and my entire life is in this house.i can practically press rewind in my mind and watch myself growing up and wandering around the rooms of this house.underneath the fresh paint on my bedroom walls are the childish scribbles of my mischevious childhood.when i pace the hall during my sleepless nights,i am reminded of how my mother used to rock me,holding me as she circled the same route i now take in an attempt to supress my early signs of insomnia.
and that's just the sentimental part.
CAN YOU IMAGINE THE PACKING?!I'M GOING TO VOMIT BLOOD.when we renovated in june my junk filled 6 cardboard boxes.not including clothes and the computer.and we're talking about boxes which dont have to be picked up and carried but just dragged around and can therefore be filled to the brim with slightly heavier objects without fear of the bottom giving way.i nearly died packing and unpacking.it took me 2 1/2 weeks to get everything out an in again.AND NOW I HAVE TO REPEAT IT.my body and mind cannot handle this stress.packing is my greatest fear.cos i have the tendency to keep lots of junk and just stash them somewhere for a few years.it's painful to even think abt it.
ok.that's the bad part.i guess there are a few good sides to it.it's a pretty big house.it's a bungalow actually.but we got it cheap cos it's like 50 years old and is bloody obiang.we're tearing it down and renovating lots of stuff.so we get to design our own house which is nice.i get to throw in some suggestions like i want a basketball hoop in the front yard.and i get to design my room(i think).and it's a big place so there's more places to hide when my mum starts nagging.and there'll be a garden which means we can get a dog and a horse and a chimpanzee and a family of flamingos.im getting carried away.im just pretty nervous.i literally cant remember the last time we moved.i was a baby.i didnt have to worry abt anything.
argh.i cant decide whether i shld be happy or sad ):)


bored.so quiz galore!

Quiz1
in no particular order, list down 3 people you talk to online, 4 people you see at school, 2 teachers, 3 people you love going out with and 3 people in your sms inbox.
1) jiamin
2) sera
3) fausty
4) drinks stall auntie
5) angela
6) mdm mak
7) vera
8) zheng lao shi
9) mrs ng
10) eileen
11) shiru
12) felicia
13) vanda
14) jiaying
15) fausty

so what do you think of number 4?
she charges an exorbitant price for a can of minute maid lemonade.i can get a better deal at moelc.but other than that she's very friendly.always chatting with her customers.

how would you feel if number 4 slapped you on your face?
like killing her.it's a generic answer really.anyone who slaps me will be on the receiving end of my total,uncontrollable wrath.but other than that,i'll probably just stop patronising the drinks stall and complain to the school abt the ridiculous price she charges for lemonade.

how nice is number 6?
ERRR.heheh.i dont really know actually.she doesnt talk as much crap as some of the other admin peeps.can go on and on abt nothing in particular sometimes but hasnt made me hate her yet.

on a scale of 1-10, rate how good looking number 5 is.
OH MAN.wow.angela.tall,tanned and a freaking good personality.20.

will you ever fall for number 10?
haha.eileen.y'know ive thought abt this before.and the conclusion i came up with is i probably would if i was a guy.i mean she's cute and sweet and intelligent and friendly and helpful.what's there not to fall for?

honestly, if number 8 met with an accident, what would you do?
OH GOD.do i know how to randomly select ppl or what?!oh god.haha.i dont know.if you talk abt witnessing the accident i'll probably help.but im not really into the visiting thing.

what sport would you play with number 1?
well.we've played badminton.but i'd really like a faceoff in basketball :)

what if number 1 got a boyfriend?
well.i wont have to worry abt her going off and getting herself hurt while doing the ususal goofy stuff she does.and he's one really lucky guy.and he'd better not hurt her or i'll hunt him down and smash his face in.

do you hate number 9?
of course not!she's the best teacher in the known universe!

how much do you like number 2?
alot.she's a good friend.

will 13 and 7 make a good couple?
vanda and vera.haha.i dont think so.

would 14 one day kill you?
i doubt she has it in her.

Quiz2
1. Like to walk under the rain?
yeah....

2. Sleep with or without clothes on?
im fine with.but i sleep without a top sometimes when it's too hot.

3. Prefer black or blue pens?
blue.always thought black looked weird.

4. what are you doing?
filling this up?

5. Like to travel?
yes.if it's some place i like to go.

6. Like someone?
i like alot of ppl :)

7.Do they know?
oh im sure they've got a clue.

9.Think you're attractive?
i dont know.why dont you tell me?

10.Want to marry?
im not desperate to but im ok with it

11.To who?
how would i know?

12.Alaska or Hawaii?
ALASKA!!!

13.Are you a good student?
MUAHAHAHAHA.HELL NO.

14.Where are you by the way?
my room.

15.Are you involved in sports?
nope.

16.Christmas or Halloween?
both.candy and presents are always good :)

17.Colored or black-and-white photo?
coloured

18.Do long distance relationships work?
it's hard i think.

19.Do you believe in yourself?
yes

20. Do you believe in God?
i believe in a higher force/being/thing but not necessarily god.

21. Do you believe in love at first sight?
yes.stuff like that happens

22.Do you consider yourself the life of the party?
no.i dont even like parties.i'd consider myself the party pooper.

23.Are you an easygoing person?
i think so

25.Do you make fun of people?
yes.and i have fun doing it :) but it's never done out of spite or anything.

26.Do you think dreams eventually come true?
not all the time.

27.Fave thing to do?
sleep.use the com.do nothing.

30.Chocolates or Candy?
CANDY!

31.Fave people?
er...nice ones?

32.Favorite body part of the opposite sex?
eyes and physique.

33.Favorite food?
everything.gluttony reigns.

34.Go to the movies or rent?
movies.i like the cinematic atmosphere.

37. How's the weather right now?
fine.

38.Hug or kiss?
NEITHER.then again it depends who it's from.and whether im willing to give/receive.but god i do hate it when ppl get overly affectionate and i try to pull me into hugs.or expect hugs from me.like who the hell are you and why should i get within three feet of you?

39.Last person you talked to on the phone?
er.i dont really like talking on the phone.but that would be my aunt and she wasnt even calling to talk to me.

40.Last time you showered?
this morning

41.Loud or soft music?
depends on the song being played.

42.McDonalds or Burger King?
macs.my family was never the burger king type.

43.More romantic?
and your question is...?

44.Night or day?
day.but night's a good time for sleeping.(what kind of question is this?!)

45.Number of pillows on ur bed?
2.one to sleep one to hold.

46.Piano or guitar?
learnt piano and hated the lessons.not playing it.just the lessons.never tried the guitar but i think it's overrated.especially with teens.

47.Read or write?
usually read.

48. single or taken?
single,duh.

49.Snow or water?
snow.it's easier to get water from snow than snow from water.

50.What are you going to do tomorrow?
i dont know.i dont like planning for tomorrow.how do i know i wouldnt die of a twisted intestine while i slumber peacefully tonight?then i would have wasted the time today that i spent planning for a tomorrow which never came.my time on earth can be put to much better use.

51.What clothes are you wearing?
old op shirt and pants.

52.What do you drink?
water?softdrinks?i tasted urine once.it was salty.

53.What's your wallpaper on your computer?
ME!!!!MUAHAHAHA.it's the pic of me behind the khan jersey we put up at our games stall.

54.What's right next to you?
a stool and some bags on my left.nothing on my right.

55.What's your bedtime?
it's not fixed.i can hit the hay any time of the day i want.

56.What's your name?
ASHOKA MUTHUSAMY RANMA NAJIP CONSTANTINE CAPTAIN JACK SPARROW YO HOHO AND A BOTTLE OF RUM LUKE I AM YOUR FATHER ALMIGHTY POWERFUL GOD OF YOUR WORLD.now isnt that a mouthful?

57.Who do you talk to the most online?
i hardly talk to anyone online!makes me wonder why i have an account at all.the 2 ppl i talk to occasionally are jiamin and sera.

58. What would you like to say to the person you miss most?
you rock my world,angel.


skipped aikido last night to attend the choir concert.but it was all good :) enjoyed the concert and sera told me i got promoted to blue belt.hallelujah.i was so scared i wouldnt get promoted cos i forgot 2 moves and i was panicking and nearly bit my own tongue there and then when my cute japanese-guy looking partner prompted me.still feeling quite disappointed with myself but at least i passed.
now back to the concert.
thought i was not gonna get a good seat cos charlotte called me as i was on my way there and told me they had began seating.but i did.and i must say it was a pretty good one.i didnt know you could get such a great view of the stage so far back.ave maria was really good.and i liked hci's wade in the water and vive l'amour.and there was some screaming in one of the ny choir's songs...that was really frightening man.but impressive.
ive also learnt that when lisyn is singing she looks extremely worried,when leeqi is singing she looks ridiculously happy(even if it's a sad song),when miaoran is singing she looks very earnest and when yixiao is singing...she doesnt look like she's singing(but apparently she wasnt as some parts cos she forgot the lyrics).
but whatever it is,everyone looked really beautiful on stage last night.cosi bello :)


I've finally finished my lit essay! :D MUAHAHAHA.I feel so liberated.And considering it was due last week and james tan gave me the ultimatum today.no essay by tomorrow morning,no marks.ergh.i hate to have the thought of marks weighing me down.but it certainly gets the brain juices churning.


I do love evenings :) The golden rays of the setting sun shine through my bedroom windows and the curtains get illuminated a kind of golden yellow.Everything is so calm and happy.I'm just waiting for dinner and I can lie on my bed and listen to the wind or occasional passing vehicle.Everything's just kind of yellowy now.And if I just stare at the shadows formed on my closet by the palm trees outside,I can almost imagine that I'm in Hawaii.
It's days like this that makes life beautful.


today's dance prac after school was chao fun! :) practiced at the media viewing room with vanda,angela,lingying,char,chenxi,xueting and sicheng.we freaking rock man :D especially when we dance the wildcats part.woohoo!
i realise whenever i ask the lady at the media resource room to open the viewing room she always thinks im gonna watch porn.it happened again today.she checked the dvd cover and opened it to make sure it was the right dvd and told us not to watch 'undesirable' videos.right...and im sure im dumb enough to watch porn in school.

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I know where we belong
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